confiusion is such a weird feeling

January 29th, 2008 by ashrina9

It is very confius..i wonder has anyone else ever confius on what he or she is currently doing. Argggghhh…i want to get out of this complicated cocoon of mine. Oh help me anyone who can help me…..i really need someone to share my thoughts, my worries, my happiness and my sadness [i have my beloved husband to share with]. Only Allah knows everything and He is my greatest love. Nobody would ever love me [except for my husband and my mom] as much as He do. Just i’m a bit confius whether i am doing the right things now??? Emmmm…..

Just buried these word on my mind…What is LOVE..Love is the greatest feeling you ever have and feel only if your love were truly appreciated by the person you love most. And one thing for sure is that, when you love someone, do not hoping that he/she will love you back as much as you do. The most important conclusion is that…LOVE ALLAH and ENJOY YOUR LIFE AS IT IS…

Make A Wish but don’t eagerly looking for it to really happend as it will not be true to you….Ok now…go and continue writing paper..

Wishing

January 13th, 2008 by ashrina9

How i wish to be back to past…exactly as soon as i started to be a tutor in usm………..

live in the present moment

November 28th, 2007 by ashrina9

You ever catch yourself daydreaming or thinking about something that happened some time ago - or even something that may or may not happen in the future?

Like most people everyday you probably think about something that happened in the past or you’re focused on something that could happen in the future.

When you you’re thinking about the past or the future - you’re not here - you’re not living in the now. You’re not living in the present moment.

When you’re not living in the now you fail to utilize what I call the power of now - something that can dramatically improve your life in ways you never thought possible.

If you want to achieve success, happiness and live the life you want - start living in the now; be here now by experiencing the present moment for the gift that it is.

Be Here Now

We all live in the present moment but very few of us utilize the power of this current moment.

Let’s face it the only thing that exists is what is happening right now.

The past does not exist; it’s over with and should be nothing but a fading memory.

The future does not exist; it simply hasn’t happened yet.

Both the past and the future are only a part of your thoughts and memories; they only exist in your mind and not in reality.

The only thing that really exists right now is the very present moment that you live in and from this present moment you can draw tremendous power; the kind of power that can change your life and allow you to achieve your goals.

Now you may not like the present moment but that’s only because you’re thinking about what you feel the present should be. You’re comparing the present moment to something else and not appreciating what is happening right now.

You’re either allowing your ego to dominate your present moment, or you’re focusing on mistakes of the past, or you’re consumed with the future that you’re forgetting to live in the present moment.

If you’re present or current situation is not pleasant then you are comparing it to something else you’re probably thinking about what the now should be instead of dealing with what is going on.

If you don’t have a job then it’s time to look for one.   I know you’re probably looking for work but don’t focus on the fact that you don’t have a job, and don’t focus on how difficult it may seem to get a job. Instead, simply concentrate on going out and getting a job. This is the process of doing what has to be done now and not worrying about the way things should be.

At the end of the day see where you are and focus on what needs to be done next.

If your children need attention right now then give them attention. If you need to go out and look for work right now then do it.   Don’t compare your present situation to anything accept what it is and make the most of it with the intention of making the present better with each step that you take.

Don’t get me wrong I’m not saying accept your present situation and don’t do anything to improve it.

I’m saying deal with your present situation and do everything you can to improve your life.

When you begin working on the present moment with the intent of improving your life you begin to utilize the power of now you leave the past in the past, you don’t concentrate on the future and instead you start living in the present moment doing everything that you can to improve your life now.

When you do this you send a powerful message to your subconscious mind.   You tell your subconscious that you are here now and ready to get to work to improve your life.

Your Subconscious mind then begins working for you because your subconscious only understands the present moment your subconscious does not understand the future or the past your subconscious only lives in the now; it only exists in the present moment.

While many of you will be able to grasp and understand the concept of living in the now and working with the power of the present moment practicing it is quite another thing.

To start working with the power of now you have to get your mind to work differently you have to get your mind to simply focus on what is happening and what needs to be done right now. No more comparing or hoping for things to get better.   Just deal with what is and what has to be done.

When you do this you start moving forward and you allow your subconscious mind to help you achieve your goal because you are here now - working with your subconscious to create the situations that you want. Start living in the present moment and get your subconscious mind working for you today

The Present is All That Exists

You have memories, you will have feelings when you think about the past, you may worry about the future but let’s face it the past no longer exists. You can’t step back in time and go into the past. The past is done with. It doesn’t exist.

You can’t step into the future and see what happens. Despite what so called psychics and astrologers say there is no way of seeing the future or living in the future. It hasn’t happened one day that future will arrive and if you’re not paying attention, if you’re too focused on the past or still worrying about the future you’ll miss it completely.

The only thing that is taking place right now is the present moment. As you read this newsletter that’s all that you are doing. When you are done the moment that you are currently experiencing will never happen again! The now will never happen again! Your present moment will never happen again!

Even when you think about the past you think about it in the present moment. You don’t physically go back in time and remember the past. You only remember the past in this present moment.

When you think about the future you do it in the present moment not in the future.

When you think about the past and the future you are wasting the valuable time and power that you have in the present moment.

The only reason people are unhappy is because they fail to live in the present moment, they fail to embrace the now.
Instead, they often think about what their present moment should be and allow their ego to dominate them thus the unhappiness sets in.

It is impossible to have a problem and live in the present moment at the same time. When you live in the present moment your attention is completely focused on what is happening at that very moment. There are no thoughts of the future or the past. If you are at work - focus on work. If you are at home focus on the home. If you are with friends focus on your friends.

When you do this your subconscious mind is released and free to start working on improving your life.

When you are focused on the past or worried about the future the subconscious is lost in confusion. It doesn’t know what you want and is forced to go from present to past and present to future without being given the time or ability to create the situations you need to improve your life in the present moment. You never allow your subconscious to function in the present moment - which is the only place that it can work.

Focus on the present moment.
Allow your subconscious mind to work for you everyday by working with the power of the present moment.
Begin directing your subconscious to help you achieve your goals

Many of you may be seeking answers, trying to make decisions or just hoping to discover a passion that you can follow.

All of these answers come when you live in the now - when you are focused on the present moment you will receive your answers.

You can’t step back into the past or step into the future to receive these answers, they only come in the present moment.

But if you’re focused on the past or consumed with the future then when the answer is delivered you’ll miss it.

Why?

Because you were not living in the present moment - this is where you can receive the answer.

If you want to start directing your subconscious mind and if you want to stop living in the past and start living in the now then you need to take control of your mind and subconscious mind and begin creating the life you want

How You Can Live In The Now

If you’re ready to start living in the now and begin creating the life that you want then take a look at your present situation and ask yourself what’s wrong with the very moment you are in.

Don’t think about what happened yesterday or sometime in the past. Don’t focus on what might or might not happen tomorrow. Take a look at the very moment you are in not 5 minutes from now and see if there is anything wrong. If you are at home is there something wrong?

Don’t say you are out of work that’s not the present moment because you are looking at what is not happening.

I want you to focus your mind on what is happening then see what is wrong with that picture.

You should find nothing wrong with the present moment it is what it is and once you accept it you can start living again.

Let’s face it you can’t turn your mind off but you can get it to work differently and that’s what you should start doing.

Because if you don’t take control of your mind your mind will control you  and that’s not going to help you improve your life.

Ask yourself these next questions:
Do you find yourself waiting for something to happen?
Are you waiting to get some more time? Make more money?
Meet the right person? Are you waiting for the right opportunity?

Waiting is another game the mind plays because it doesn’t want to live in the present moment.

If you answered yes to any of the above questions then you’re not living in the present moment you are focusing on anything but the present moment.

I know you can’t focus on the present moment or live in the now 24 hours a day. But start by doing this for a few minutes a day and then continue expanding the exercise everyday.

Then track your progress. See how you feel when you only focus on what is happening right now. As you continually do this you’ll see yourself starting to enjoy the process.

Here’s a suggestion. The next time you are driving or walking pay attention only to what is happening around you. Listen to the sounds, observe the people. Don’t think about what you have to do or what happened yesterday or what might happen tomorrow or what might happen in five minutes.

Focus your attention only on what is happening right now. Doing this will get your mind to start living in the present moment and before you know it you’ll be able to focus your mind and utilize the power of now.

Start utilizing the power of now - you’ll be more focused and you’ll enjoy the present moment. Best of all you’ll start moving toward achieving your goals and living the life you want

****…A Simple Way to be Happy…****

November 28th, 2007 by ashrina9

Why Nothing Will Make You Happy

Being happy does not depend on a particular outcome or something happening to you.

You can’t go into a store and buy a 10-pound bag of happiness. There is no place where you can go and find happiness sitting there waiting for you.

Unfortunately many of us have been brought up to believe that something external can make you happy.

Advertising of all sorts suggests that a new car, skin cream, a new outfit, new shoes a drink, or a new diet can make you happy - but that is simply not true.

Nothing can make you happy because happiness is really a feeling - happiness is something that you experience.

If you want to be happy - then be happy.

But most people don’t choose to be happy because they spend most of their time focusing on what is wrong with their life. You may do something you don’t enjoy doing and never allow yourself to truly experience happiness.

Let’s face it - you can’t be happy doing something that you don’t like. If you don’t believe me try it.

Go ahead - do something you really don’t enjoy.

You also can’t do something you really enjoy and be sad or angry. Don’t believe me - try it. See what happens.

So if you think that getting a new job will make you happy you’re wrong - getting a new job won’t make you happy. If you think that having a boyfriend/girlfriend will make you happy - you’re wrong. If you think having a million dollars will make you happy - you’re wrong it won’t.

It’s not the money, relationship or new job that will make you happy.

Happiness is a feeling that you experience when you appreciate the positive things in your life.

Unfortunately, people falsely believe they can be happy when they achieve a particular goal and make the mistake of chasing that goal in order to be happy.

For example: if you want a new job and think that by having a new job you will be happy - it’s not the job that will make you happy. It more likely is the feeling of security, the ability to make your payments that creates a sense of relief which you mistake for happiness.

If its a milliön döllars that you think will make you happy then you’ll likely find that what really allows you to be happy is the financial security, the freedom that comes from having a million dollars that you feel will allow you to be happy - because you’ll then be able to do what you enjoy.

It’s really not the million döllars that makes you happy.

This mistake is quite common - because it’s not security or peace of mind that makes you happy. Instead you experience happiness when you do what you enjoy and when you focus on the positive things taking place in your life. If you’re not doing that - then you can never be happy.

Don’t think that you can be happy by having something.

Discover how you can experience happiness by achieving your particular goal. Focus on what you want.

Start doing things that you enjoy. Look at the positive things that are going on in your life. Direct your mind and subconscious mind to help you experience happiness everyday. This will start once you begin to appreciate the good things in your life.

How You Can Be Happy

Okay so nothing makes you happy - so how can you begin to be happy?

It’s really quite simple - simply shift your focus.

Instead of looking at all that is wrong with your life, instead of looking at what you don’t like about yourself or your life - change your focus. Start appreciating all that is good in your life.

Make a list if you want - and write out all of the positive things in your life. Usually someone will say: "Karim, I can’t think of anything positive or good in my life. I just want to be happy."

That’s only because you’re not seeing all that the positive things in your life.

Everyday there are wonderful things taking place in your life - yet you fail to observe and recognize these events or people. This can be anything from a warm meal to a wonderful spouse, family, etc. If you have a roof over your head - that’s a positive aspect of your life.

If you had a warm meal - that’s a positive event. If you had a pleasant conversation with someone - that’s a positive aspect.

Start looking at all of the great and terrific things that are going on in your life and you’ll begin to experience happiness on a deeper level.

You can begin to improve or change the areas that you are not happy with - but at the same time you should acknowledge the good things that are going on in your life.

Your mind is used to only paying attention to what is going wrong - and in the process it directs the subconscious mind to continue creating more of those things that are going wrong. You actually create more of what makes you unhappy.

Why?

Because your subconscious creates what you regularly think about. So if you don’t regularly focus on the positive things you won’t create positive situations in your life.

And here’s where it gets worse - when you constantly focus on what is wrong with your life, when you only think about and see what is wrong in your life your subconscious begins to create more of what is wrong - or more of what you don’t want - because it thinks that you want more.

Now you know why it can be so difficult for some people to truly experience happiness - it’s because they’re used to focusing on the negative aspects of life and in the end continue to create more of what they don’t want.

In order to change all of this you have to begin training the mind and re-directing the subconscious mind to begin creating what you want in life and to focus on the good things that are taking place in your life.

Begin experiencing happiness by changing your focus. Everyday think of the positive things that are going on in your life. Make a list of all the wonderful things that are taking place in your life.

Think of at least 3 great things that happened to you - they can be small or large - but just appreciate 3 good things that happened during the day. Focus on the positive. Direct your mind and subconscious mind by changing your perspective
so you experience happiness everyday

Have Some Fun

Now that you know that your happiness does not depend on some other event taking place - you can now follow another simple step to experience happiness and that is to simply have fun.

Too often I hear from people who simply want to be happy but when I ask them what they do for fun - they say: "Nothing." No wonder you’re not happy. How can you be happy if you’re never having fun in life?

If you want to experience happiness then you have to start doing things that you can enjoy.

I love to play soccer and race my car. I also have a lot of fun when I’m playing with my nephews or nieces. I also have a lot of fun when I act like a 6 year old with my wife who responds by acting like she’s 4. This is how I enjoy life and it allows me to experience a great deal of happiness. I try not to grow up too quickly - what’s the point of being an adult all of the time? To me it’s simply not fun and I choose to enjoy my life - you should try it.

If you want to experience happiness then start doing things that you enjoy. You may like gardening; you may like hang gliding, you may like riding your bike, you may enjoy going for long walks, you may enjoy acting like a 5-year old - whatever it is - start doing it and see how great you feel. But there is one catch - when you’re doing what you enjoy - you can only focus on that and not think about anything else that may be bothering you.

That’s the only way you’ll truly enjoy the activity and begin to experience happiness.

As adults we get bogged down with the everyday tasks that force us to be serious. We have jobs where we’re serious, bills to pay, food to prepare, kids to look after, it’s all too serious and it is necessary. I’m not suggesting you ignore your responsibilities - but take some time just to have some fun.

Now you can’t just have fun once a week or once a month. You have to do this everyday. That means everyday you have to find something fun to do then only will you get comfortable and used to the process - to the point where you regularly experience happiness. Once you start doing this you’ll enjoy it so much you’ll wonder why you never did this to begin with.

I know somebody out there is going to say: "I’ll enjoy life when I get a new job." Or something like that. I’ll probably also hear from someone who says: "I don’t have time to have fun or enjoy my life. That’s why I’m not happy." My answer to that is that if you see things in such a way then being happy simply isn’t important enough to you. If you really believe that you can only be happy when you get a job or when something else happens - you’re denying yourself the opportunity to be happy right now. If you don’t feel you have the time to have fun and enjoy your life then you’re really saying that your happiness is not important enough.

Only when you decide to be happy will you truly begin to experience happiness. You can work with the techniques I’ve outlined - they will help you get started. But you will need to train your mind and subconscious mind to begin seeing and living in a different way

How can u eliminate a negative thinking in your life

November 28th, 2007 by ashrina9

Did you know that negative thoughts can destroy your life?

A mind filled with negative thoughts will cause you to feel miserable, inadequate and will lead you to failure after failure no matter how hard you try to succeed.

If you have a pattern of negative thinking you’re also more likely to be in debt and end up in destructive or negative relationships. 

If you want to succeed, enjoy happiness and live a life of abundance, and prosperity - you will have to eliminate any consistent negative thinking, and negative beliefs that you hold.

You’ll also have to replace those negative thoughts with positive thoughts that allow you to succeed and enjoy life.

While this may sound challenging - it’s a lot easier than you think-and today I’m going to outline just how you can eliminate negative thinking and begin creating the life you want in a few simple steps.


How Negative Thoughts Start

Let’s face it, we all have negative thoughts. As much as you try you won’t be able to eliminate all your negative thinking.

But you can eliminate the chronic negative thoughts and change the negative beliefs that prevent you from succeeding and achieving your goals.

What are these thoughts and where do they come from?

They come from you friends, your family, fellow co-workers, advisers, teachers, even strangers - and they come from you -that’s right! You often create most of the negative thoughts that you have - and it’s only because you haven’t trained your mind to be positive and you haven’t created positive beliefs that allow you to succeed.

The truth is everyday you are bombarded with a series of negative thoughts, negative messages and as you continue to absorb all of these negative messages you create a negative thinking pattern that leads to negative and limiting beliefs.

Negative thoughts are like weeds - if you don’t take care of them and clear them early on - they will take over your entire mind and destroy any positive thoughts and beliefs.

Here’s an analogy that I think drives home my point.

Nearly two years ago my wife and I bought a home with a huge backyard. Now I’m no professional gardener and I knew that taking care of this yard would be challenge - but I was up for it.

Well when summer came weeds started to takeover my yard. I asked a so called expert how to handle the issue and the advice I was given just about ruined my yard.

I destroyed various chunks of my yard - there were burned patches all over the place and I had o re-seed large sections.

I spent hours removing the burned grass, putting in fresh soil and planting the seeds.

Everyday I watered those patches and made sure the seeds got enough water to help them grow.

Every morning I would like out the window hoping to see new grass in those patches.

One day - I forgot to look.

I got home in the evening - went out to water those patches - and guess what - there was new grass everywhere. The patches were fading and the new grass seemed to have sprouted overnight.

Your mind and life work in a similar way.

How?

Let me explain.

At infancy your mind is much like my garden was - bright, clear and untainted by the weeds of negative thinking.

As you get older - the weeds of negative thinking start to pop up. When you don’t control them they start to wipe out all that was lush and positive in your mind and in your life.

The weeds of negative thinking not only taint your mind - they spill over into your life and start destroying all that you treasure and appreciate.

But just like my garden - you can fix or correct the problem. You can eliminate the weeds, plant new seeds and create a new life and a new way of thinking - one that will allow you to enjoy life a great deal.

How?

You start by replacing the weeds of negative thinking with positive thoughts, positive feelings, and begin spreading this positive message to other people.

When you have a negative thought that says you can’t do something - think of why you can do something.

When you think of what might go wrong - change those negative thoughts and think about what can go right.

When you feel that you can’t accomplish something - think of why you can accomplish something.

Recite affirmations - these are the seeds of your new positive way of thinking. Work with as many techniques as you can to get rid of the weeds and
plant new seeds for positive thinking and positive living.

The results will come when you least expect it.

I had to continue watering my lawn until one day - the new grass just seemed to pop up.

You have to continue watering your mind with positive feedback - and then only will things start to change.

When will this change happen?

When you are ready and when you eliminate the negative thinking. Start removing the negative thoughts that create the weeds of your mind. Begin changing negative and limiting beliefs.

A big day in my life

September 27th, 2006 by ashrina9

On September 19, 2006…….I had been given an award from my school and the award was presented by the Vice Chancellor of University Science Malaysia. I was so surprised that i got that….and so thankful to Allah for the award. So Ashrina, you have to work hard after this…hehehe..in order to show that you really deserve the given award.Dsc_0093

Workshop at cameron

September 22nd, 2006 by ashrina9

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September 8, 2006

    It was fifteen minutes after eleven that we headed to the cameron highland by USM bus. I can’t describe what kind of feeling inside me at that time but the truth is that, i don’t really happy. One thing for sure is that, working life is totally different from school life. Back to the story, i was quite all the way till bukit merah i guess…coz first, i don’t really comfortable sitting next to someone who so quite..hehehe…ok then, not even halfway that i started to feel cheer again when kak niza [her life has always cheerful] moved to each person to interview and record the personal feeling towards upcoming workshop..its so great and we were having so much fun till simpang pulai where we stopped for almost a hour and half as the men went to the mosque for solat jumaat and also taking our lunch there.
    At 2.30 pm we were headed to the cameron highland. I think the road its not so winding and its not really bad as what people said so. I really love this scenery and the greenery sight. Feels so much of tranquility and peace. It had been drizzling all the way up to cameron..this is my first time going to cameron. We get there and check in and i never thought that i would have that quite sister as my roomate for two nights. What can i do, its my fate…Sometimes ..erm most of the time, we have to thankful with whatever we got hehe..so started the workshop. First agenda was a team building game. My team got the first place…its so unexpected as my team consists of not really tough member..hehehe [including myself]. But the game proven that my team was the best when we were chosed to be the winner. Just before dinner, we played volleyball and again my team won the game..again so unexpected. The workshop was fab but really exhausted. I took MC for three days just after the workshop..hehehe…its just that sometimes we need a break in our hectic day life and i really appreciated that three days MC given to me though i’m not sick or anything [just muscular pain n insufficient sleep]..hehehe..

Depressing lately

August 7th, 2006 by ashrina9

Depressing lately

 I wonder if I could always be a
baby for the rest of my life…need not to think of anything…anything at all. Now
I understand why babies always cry when the first time they arrived in this
cruel and dirty world so called as ‘earth’. They cried because they scared can’t
bear the task given by Allah as khalifah in Bumi and so they cried and cried
because they know all the hitch and hurdles waiting ahead.

I have always wanted to have
someone who I can love and love me in return. I think I had asked too much..of
course I’m very thankful with what I have now. But sometimes, we always feel
that its still not enough. Am I too demanding? Its really hard to understand
the population of the opposite sex. I feel that I have made the best I can and
be the most excellent person for him. But I have no idea how he felt about me.
May be he is tired of me…tired of me being his girl. Probably all these thing
have had written in my fate…so like it or not..have to go through it. Prepared
myself with all the guts and serene to face anything. May Allah always be with
me….

My BESERI buddies

July 31st, 2006 by ashrina9

Cepat sungguh masa berlalu..x sangka dah hampir 8 tahun keluar dari mrsm dan selama tu jgkla x penah jumpa ramai member2 masa mrsm dulu. Ada yang dah kawin pun..x jemput lak tu..x pelah..may be dah x de contact kan..20hb Ogos ni Samihah akan kawin..Insyaallah panjang umur sampaila ke kenduri dia. Wonder how she would looks now, still maintain cute rasanya..paperpun kepada member2 mrsm dulu..kalau nk kawin tu..bgtaula at least kalau x leh pegi pun blh kirim hadiah ke kirim ucapan ke…oklah…selamat pengantin baru kepada sesiapa yang nk kawin dan baru kawin….

PAiNt

July 27th, 2006 by ashrina9

I’ve got a hot chilly feeling I don’t understand
I’ve got to run through this minute like a hurricane
I’ve got to tighten my wire from the sense to the soul
Bird_glass
I find my back to the wall when its time to go
I’ve got to know is that your heartbeat?

Paint…..me right
Can you feel the heat in me tonight?
Oh I, I’m the pearl….paint your love all over my world

I get a love shock /electric from the touch of your hand
I’m getting lost in the riddles of the modern man
I’ve got it up down all around tied to the bone
Hey t
here’s a strange situation on the late nite show

I’ve got to know is that your heartbeat?

Paint…..me right
Can you feel the heat in me tonight?
Oh I, I’m the pearl….paint your love all over my world
Do it right, I can feel the woman in me tonight
Oh I’m the pearl….Paint your love all over my world